Visiting;)

Friday evening I got to visit with my Granddaughter, Grandson-in-law and Great-granddaughter. So precious. We ate tacos, ice cream & cheese cake because tomorrow is my granddaughter's 24th birthday. Her husband teased that he remembers because of the attack on Pearl Harbor. Atleast he remembers, right? The little one is 5 & very precocious. Haven't seen her since May & she walks in & says "Hi gamma, I love you, OK? Did you make that Christmas tree for me?" She spotted the tree in the balcony right off. So I plugged the lights in & gave her more decorations to put on the tree. But it's cold up here!
I had been at Wal-Mart just before they arrived. Went to get the ice cream & a shoe rack for my door. Poor Jules worked all night, then fixed the shoe rack & my dresser mirror. We talked & talked like we hadn't seen each other in 5 yrs. Makes my heart smile when they tell me they can talk to me about anything. Just the way I felt about my Grandpa. Told them I spoke to him for 19 years after he died. AND.......wait for it.......wait for it......They like my blog! Considering their ages, that was pretty cool:) Anyway, on the drive back I got to enjoy the Sandia Mountains in all their glorious, frosted splendor. I am home. Cold air, achy joints, and missing my dogs. All my family says the same thing. "We are so glad you are back HOME."
Rae asked me if I had left anything in Deming that I regretted leaving...yes, my dogs. Told them I had text my ex to ask how they are. "the dogs are fine." Thank God! They would probably freeze up here. The high today was 32,
During our conversation I was told about some of the little one's behavior. Said, "Sounds like someone I know." Blood always tells. She is acting a lot like her Grandpa Scotty, my son that died long before she was born. I want her to know a little about him which is pushing me to get organized & start back on genealogy,
I told them a little of what happened in the break-up of my marriage & in my leaving my job so abruptly. And, how right it all felt. I understand my action caused somewhat of a stir. Oh well.
So I shared this with her: Th' expense of spirit in  a waste of shame   
                                         Is lust in action; and. till action, lust
                                         Is perjured, murd'rous, bloody, full of blame
                                        Savage, extreme, rude, cruel, not to trust;
                                        Enjoyed no sooner but despised straight;
                                      Past reason hunted, and no sooner had,
                                     Past reason hated as a swallowed bait,
                                      On purpose laid to make the taker mad:
                                      Mad in pursuit, and in possession so:
                                     Had, having, and in quest to have, extreme:
                                     A bliss in proof, and proved, a very woe;
   Before. a joy proposed; behind, a dream. All this the world well knows; yet none knows well,
                            To shun the heaven that leads men to this hell.
                                                                                                          William Shakespeare
                                                                                                          Sonnet 129

Isn't that a beautiful way to describe what God's given wisdom prompted Solomon to say, "There is nothing new under the sun."
Whether it be divorce, children's behavior, being accused, being happy, being content, looking to God, or going to hell. It also prompted a mini Bible study on our paths. I shared my life verses with them & we prayed for the little one.
My life verses are:
                               Who among you fears the LORD?
                               Who obeys the voice of His Servant?
                               Who walks in darkness
                              And has no light?
                              Let him trust in the name of the LORD
                              And rely upon his God,
                            Look. all you who kindle a fire,
                            Who encircle yourselves with sparks:                               
                              Walk in the light of your fire and in the sparks you have kindled---
                         This you shall have from MY hand.     
                             You shall lie down in torment.
                                                                                                             Isaiah 50:10-11

The last time my son & spoke, before his death, I had told him about his road leading to no good & how much I loved him. Shared the same passages with him. But he chose to light his own path and as a result died at the age of 32. He would have loved his granddaughter to distraction. He is sorely missed. Another one of the things Rae & I talked about.
I didn't sleep well that night. Too many memories resurfaced.
For every heartache, He blesses me with even more. I connected with 3 of my best friends, my family & shortly my love of needle work & genealogy. The days here pass just as fast as they did in Deming. I feel alive, grateful & so many other things beyond my ability to describe. Weird. I feel like I've been here forever instead of less than 2 weeks.